Just writing without purpose I

Posted by Stephan on February 27, 2010 under My Personal Therapy |

So. I have set up the whole about thing again. I wonder how long it will last this time. At the moment the title of this post is “Just writing without purpose I” which is me just starting to write and see where it leads me. I like the idea of that. The “I” in this case stands for a number btw indicating that this might lead to a series. If it happens that there actually is stuff with a content the title will change so even this one might not stay the first .. although I personally doubt it.

So that is me writing without purpose. Not so easy but easier for me sometimes than writing about something I actually want to write. Like my head is filled with ideas about something but I can’t find a way of letting them out. Like I start writing a sentence. Then delete it. And again. No can’t write it that way, that sounds stupid. Delete. And the same again and again until I just give writing about the thing at all. But when I write without a purpose there is no sense in judging what I’m writing. Judging requires a purpose. Like it should be funny, interesting, educational or whatever. Here the purpose lies in the writing itself, so it could only be judged as bad if I haven’t writen anything at all. Even gibberish would fulfill the purpose here. And I can use as many word repetitions as I like. Or start sentences the same way. Or start sentences in an identical way.

Not judging myself. I like that. Have to do that more often. The not judging thing. Not that I do it all the time usually but more often than I would like and when I do it’s often very devastating. But that’s because of the way I was brought up. Parents and stuff. Not yet. That’s getting my parts worked up. My parts. Hmm. No. Not yet either. They wouldn’t feel comfortable at the moment with that. But they will be introduced. Another time.

Haven’t done much today yet. Not entirely true. I managed to write a new about page that should count for something. I usually don’t give myself enough credit for the stuff I’m doing. But well enough for now.

Purpose fulfilled.